TRANSCENDENCE

i want to be a fashion model on a mediterranean shoot

i want sea breezes and a size 1 in something leather

gigantic black sunglasses that hide my roving eye

and hairdressers standing by when a curl misbehaves

in a way that shows everyone i just don't care

i want champagne at the casino sent to me

by green bond moguls yearning to feel my soft secret

but worried i'm too nihilistic to give it up

i want to be so self-full that it shapes the world around me

and be on rhinestone t-shirts for being the one

everyone believes can manifest their reality

i want emerald tortoise earrings from a limited collection

and use of someone's ferrari if i so choose

i want time to be the one who avoids the studied and noble path

and be interviewed and granted honorary degrees because i did

i want jet lag from private jets and the occasional weekend

with an artistic couple in the algarve who like threesomes

i want parties with inner parties and favorite escapes on-call

and access to the latest that anything has to offer

i want to walk nanjing road beneath a skyscraper sized

billboard flashing stock shots of me and not even notice

then lounge on a beach somewhere remote and expensive

and be comped the whole thing just so they can say I was there

i want six-hand massages and a tiny tattoo

only the most daring and privileged will ever find

i want passion without being unrealistic

and so much love here and there to make me feel

what a momentary, conditional thing it needs to be

i want living in the moment to reflect all the meaning there is

and ever can be, immersion as distraction from this world

enjoying it for what it is instead of what others yearn for it to be

this place without actual meaning or deeper value

i want not to be bothered by anything like everyone else is

not tortured by chasing phantoms of heart and ideals

i want to relish my acceptance

of how pointless everything turns out to be
in this place of deluded make-believe

and when the day comes

when no one wants to take a picture of me

i want not to want anymore

i will hide myself away in an exclusive enclave

custom built for me and my temperamental peterbald

contemplate nothing, enjoy obscurity

and relax away from the nothingness

that society, this world

 always was and will be

i will be neither content nor regretting

having lived a life of

actual transcendence

psychedelics allow 
you to contact the mind 
but it seems not your mind 
it seems 
and this mind turns you within in kind 
where it goes is a mystery to itself 
it seems 
outside the mystery is more 
even as you sense the more is you 
and not you 
it's the fabric 
of numinous veils being lifted 
veils without seams 
shades of perception 
beyond one's limitation to react 
another passage 
into the where that is 
and isn't what it seems 
with the faith 
of a dying wish, 
the only thing certain 
being love

the larger the system the greater the chance

there will be unintended consequences from its bulk 

or from attempting to modify the system

best outcomes manifest when one stays 

within their domain of competence 

-- but complexity will increase 

until no one will be able to do this 

without artificial aids

and the chance that those aids 

will have unintended consequences 

also compound

truth is not arrived at by consensus

Butterfly Armageddon Effect by Displacement
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my boss yells at me
so I yell at my wife
my wife yells at the baby
the baby bites the cat
the cat scratches the dog
the dog pees on the neighbor
the neighbor kicks the delivery person
the delivery person flips off a cop
the cop shoots a jaywalker
the jaywalker burns down the donut shop
the fat lady clutching a jelly roll starts a riot
the rioters attack the vegan counter-protesters
the vegans pour cow's blood on the arresting SWAT team
the SWAT team beat the prisoners at the local jail
the prisoners torture the captive news reporters 
an escaping reporter spits on the governor being interviewed outside
the governor calls out the national guard
the national guard opens fire on the prison
the SWAT team return fire
the President calls in the regular army
the army uses gas to knock everybody out at the prison
a UN force fires cruise missiles to punish the army for using chemical weapons
the navy retaliates by sinking a UN frigate flying a Russian flag
Russia fires tactical nukes in pre-emptive strike against forward-deployed NATO forces in Eastern Europe
Launch codes are authorized by Russia, US, Britain, France, China, Israel, Pakistan, India, and North Korea for 9500 ballistic missiles
--- the only question is... who pissed off my boss 
and who upset them? 

what would you do if you could do anything, moment to moment?
if that was possible, within minutes you'd be unrecognizable to yourself

only dead fish go with the flow

good judgement comes from experience

and experience?  
that comes from poor judgement

an aphorism a day keeps critical thinking away

what does god lack? -- limitation
but by definition, god can't lack anything
god is, always was, and always will be complete
and so ongoing creation is necessary
to manifest god's limitation - 
a limitation that makes god complete

the price you pay for being is limitation
the price you pay for limitation is suffering
but who are you?
you are god
experiencing god's limitation,
that thing called creation

the universe has as many different centers as there are living beings in it - aleksandr solzhenitsyn

it is said there is a heaven and hell and the way you live your life determines which one you end up in - most misunderstand this as being religious dogma but no afterlife has to be involved for this to be true, in fact this is an accurate predictor of what happens in the now

what if, at times, we are in heaven but it's not noticed because we don't believe in it?

man suffers only because he takes seriously what the gods made for fun

things become complicated only when we think about them - alan watts

"What you see in the world, in some sense, is a set of animated cartoons. And a lot of that is actually a consequence of you seeing nothing but your memory. Because your brain is organized so that instead of going through all of the difficulty of having to look at the thing in itself, you look at what you assume to be there. And if you can get away with that, so much the better. But the thing in itself is always much richer than your apprehension of it, which is partly why you make mistakes, but also partly why you can continue to garner wisdom in the world. There's always more there than meets the eye. And God only knows how much more there's there than meets the eye. And you can show this, even in the religious sense, to some degree, because you can say that there's an element to the transcendent that instills people with a sense of religious significance. You can do that, immediately, scientifically, by feeding people chemicals, for example, that disrupt the inhibition of perception by memory and that puts them in a place where the transcendent tends to reveal itself, sometimes in overwhelming force. So it's not fiction that this exists. What's transcendent is more real than the reality that you perceive." 
- Jordan B. Peterson / Apprehending The Transcendent

"We think more than we can say,
we feel more than we can think,
we live more than we can feel."
--Eugene T. Gendlin

"The small wisdom is like water in a glass - clear, transparent, pure.
The great wisdom is like the water in the sea - dark, mysterious, impenetrable."
- Rabindrarath Tagore

"I felt deep within me that the highest point a man can attain is not Knowledge or Virtue or Goodness or Victory but something even greater, more heroic and more despairing: Sacred Awe!"  --Nikos Kazantzakis

Integration of plant medicine experiences - 
there is much talk and method these days on this topic.
When Alan Watts met Carl Jung, one of his many impressions 
may illuminate a bit of how Jung walked the talk.  

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